This year is such a great year for me in terms of traveling and music experience.
In February I went to Amsterdam, Brussels and Paris in 5 days with my two aunties. We stayed in cheap hostels, walked around the cities, took some picture, it was unbelievable. And the highlight? Seeing the great Tour d’Eiffel with my own eyes!
My family and I spent quality time a lot during spring-summer time. We road-tripped to Eger, Balaton and other places around Hungary because the weather is getting warmer. It’s always a great moment when I spend time with my family, they’re the best and they’re the only thing that is constantly amazing in my life. PS: My brother also graduated from high school this year :D
The ultimate highlight of both my family and my traveling experience were when we went to London and Rome together. First of all, London!!! Oh my god, I don’t regret a single thing that happened there, except that we should’ve stayed longer :P ‘Up The Bracket’ alley, Brick Lane Market, Baker Street, Spitalfields, Oxford Street… Basically everywhere we went! And sure, I’ve went to Rome before, but that was only for a stopover. This time we really explored every inch of the city.
Also don’t forget Berlin for Arctic Monkeys in June. The first time I’ve ever travel by myself. Seeing the modern city of Berlin and my most favourite band in the world, I couldn’t be more happier. Well, actually I could if only I got the chance to meet the band, but instead I met and had good times with amazing strangers.
My cool cousin came over in August and stayed over a week, we went to Vienna together with my brother and had basically a great time while she was here. We went to Sziget Music Festival, where we saw Kasabian and The Chemical Brothers and just hung out with my awesome friends.
Where else did I go? Oh, I went to Split, Croatia and did some Balinese dance for the Indonesian Embassy. We got the chance to look around the city for a day, and it was also a great experience.
Besides that I had also some new experiences that aren’t that huge but would still leave a memory imprinted in me. I joined a forum theatre community for some foreign youth community. I got to know some amazing people and we made a performance just a couple of weeks ago, if you can still remember. I learned how to bake cupcakes. I made a new good friend. And last but not least, I also got a new job in FAO of UN. I couldn’t say it’s a dream job, but it’s a dream workplace. Wish me luck! All in all, this year is a good year.
Personally, I’d like to say that I’m a more patient person than ever, I didn’t try that hard to make myself happier or calmer, because it’s been a less painful year compared to 2010. And I believe I deserved it.
These past 3 days I’ve been having dramatic ‘movie-like’ dream, and they all have one theme in common and that is running away.
The first one tells a story about a woman and her partner (a guy, I’m not sure he’s her boyfriend or husband or what) that tricked a lot of people into giving them lots of money. I remember it amounted to $5000. I remember vividly there were a scene when they were ducked down on inside a building trying to count dollar bills on envelopes while cops are searching for them. Then an explosion happened and they got away, but still knowing cops are still after them. And so they went to a travel agent and try to book a flight out of the country to some place with a beach view.
The second dream I had yesterday was about a gang of robbers trying to rob a bank. There were big van waiting in the back alley and I remember the main character (which is me, but not really me) was crouched in front of a big safe and was trying to enter in the pin. They succeed, got the money, jumped into the van and drove as fast as they could with the blaring sound of police siren in the background. When I come to awake, I noticed the same sound of police siren and realized an ambulance was driving by the nearby street of my house.
The one I had last night was even more dramatic. It started with this beautiful girl with long straight blonde hair trying to run as fast as she could away from her two chasers. She tried to hide between alleys, she tried to sneak in shops and behind cars and she almost lost them. But she can’t really run away, there’s something holding her back, something that she needs to do. So she ran back to where she started knowing that her two catchers would caught up with her and when she reached her starting point, she saw the lifeless body of her fiance and broke down crying on the ground. She looked up and she was on a park in a hospital and she remembered what she did. She was trying to steal her brain dead fiance so she can be together with him, but realized that he was helpless. He was on an accident the day after he proposed to her and was declared brain dead after several operations. When she cried her heart out on the ground, I could feel her massive loss and sadness. My heart felt heavy, even in sleep.
My life is so boring the only way I could have adrenaline shot is by having dreams like these.
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Tapes ‘n Tapes - Freak Out
All my life I think I’ve always been quite lucky and got away with everything I’ve done. But maybe I haven’t been grateful enough or maybe my luck is finally running out but I get scared a lot lately. Scared of everything, of making the wrong choice, of not feeling what I’m supposed to feel, sometimes of things that aren’t even my problem to begin with.
Every beginning of the year ever since I could remember I’ve always known what I wanted to do. Most of the time, I’ve always have some reasons to wake up in the morning. Truthfully, I haven’t had a reason for a while other than to exist on a daily basis. I haven’t made up my mind about what I’m gonna do this year that’s stable enough, and I’m not happy with the current choices I have.
A lot of advice I got was to follow your passion, do what you love and the rest will follow. Well, horror of horror, I’m not even sure what my passions are again. Plus, the passion that I have has always been that small room in the back of my mind to escape from daily routine. If I start doing what I love for a living, where would I go for escape? The biggest temptation I face every day is to make the easy and safe choice, and let me tell you it won’t be something I’ll be proud of.
I guess sometimes, having only one or two doors open for you is easier that having a lot of them. Narrow choices are best because I have low standard and I’m used to being happy enough with what I got.
